Looking for... MYSELF

Other’s behavior often baffles us… But it’s my own behavior of late that has left me baffled more than anything else! Has Left me very puzzled too…

While others (friends and family) have been complaining for a while, the reality has dawned upon me only now.

The ever so gregarious me has suddenly turned into a social recluse. No social life at all – neither virtual nor real…

The vagabond in me seems to have died an abrupt death!

The butterflies in the garden don’t bring a smile to my face anymore.

The once-upon-a-time lazy girl (and my Symbi roomie will testify and confirm) has become a workaholic!

My temper has begun to get the better of me… And more often than not…

I haven’t sung a song in ages now… I could croon the weirdest and most of unheard of songs in a single breath, but now, I struggle to sing even the ones I loved the most!

And the worst part is – I am still trying to figure out what has happened! And why! And when! When did I become the person I have? I can’t even relate to the person I have eventually become! Why can I not enjoy the small wonders around me anymore? What do I need to bring back to life the vivacious and carefree person inside of me?

Time to do some serious soul searching I guess!

And find myself again…

New Found Friendship...

Well, when I walked out the gates of my college, I thought that I wouldn't find friends anymore, only colleagues or acquaintances would be the order of the day now on... But but but... I couldn't have been more wrong... So let me introduce you to some of my new friends...

First is the guy at the cafeteria counter, whom we lovingly call "Ranaji" in office... Well given my love for food and the therefore frequent trips to the cafeteria counter, it didn't take me long to befriend him!! And now, my day at work seems all too incomplete without a casual 5 minute chit-chat with him some time during the day! I am sure if my employers were to read this, I could land myself in some trouble! :)

Another gentleman is a senior at my workplace. He's very very senior to me, and I am not even sure if he knows that I already count on him as a friend in Office. One-sided friendship, you could say! 

Ummm... Next is the guy at my guest house who serves me food... He gifted me laddoos this Diwali, by the way! And before you think that sweets were the sole criteria for me to say this, it isn't! :P

And of course, I got in touch with all my friends with whom I had been out of touch for a long time now, all thanks to Diwali!!

Well, Diwali sure was a happyone for me...

Happy Deepawali to everyone...

And here's hoping and wishing from the bottom of my heart, that may god bless every one with abounding happiness and joy forever!

Well, I just proofread what I wrote and find it weird... started with college and ended with Diwali!! 

But then there needn't be a method to madness always!! :)

Party at Crossroads!

All those who know me (a little or a lot!!), will be all too familiar with my love for singing - anytime, anywhere! And when I run out of songs, the composer in me comes alive! And thereafter my spontaneous and instantaneous creations! Wanted to share a sweet n funny incident where my love for singing obviously got the better of me!

I was waiting at a bus stop with one of my friends, waiting to catch the bus back to college! And of course, since we had arrived a little early at the stop, and had nothing much to do, I started singing to him! My friend was initially only a 'little' embarrassed, and after a while 'totally' embarrassed! But I was on a roll! And then, 2 little boys came along, and began tugging at my top, asking for food/money... anything! I pulled out a couple of dairy milk chocolates I had on me (purely by chance!). But before I handed over the chocolates to the kids, whose minds were already feasting on them, I told them that they would have to listen to a couple of my songs! They giggled! They looked at each other! And then mutually agreed, coz it didn't really seem like a bad deal! Meanwhile, my friend so wished that he could disappear into thin air! While I was overjoyed to have new audience! I sang to the little angels till one of them interrupted me and said to me - 'didi, can u sing 'it’s magic, it’s magic' from 'koi mil gaya'! I'd love to dance!' Well, I sang a bit and he danced a lil! Till, he suddenly turned shy! And then, both of them grabbed the chocolates and ran away, all smiles and laughter! They kept turning back as they walked away and continued waving to me till I could finally see them no more!

Well the bus arrived and I got in! And, yes, those of you who think I lost my friend for putting him through such extreme embarrassment, I didn’t! And I didn’t have to bribe him with chocolates!

Selfish 'ME' - that's one side of me too!

Ummm... have nothing special to write! Caught up with a lot of things in life! Trying to fulfil and live up to the expectations of so many people around! And then, realised, that somewhere, forgot to fulfil my own expectations! my expectations of myself! my dreams for myself! all quashed! Friends say, that we have to make sacrifices in life! I understand, have done so too! And am not the only one to do so! But find it a little strange - i drew a picture, and yet cannot choose the colours to fill it up with! And at the cost of sounding and branded as 'selfish', i say this - I want to live for myself, for once!